| two sides to see |
[01 Jun 2008|07:32pm] |
Fear and selfishness are in ourselves two emotions connected to each other just like per example two atoms of hydrogen in a water molecule.
Fear generates fear, selfishness generates selfishness, but fear can also generate selfishness and selfishness can also generate fear. Everyone has a different capacity in absorbing fear and selfishness coming from external stimulis (coming from other people's actions or actions that are not in this one's person control) and everyone has different ways of dealing with these emotions. I think the best way would be to learn how to transform those negative influences in positive energy by filtering them in our minds, like if fear and selfishness were a big laser beam, a dangerous and deadly laser beam that would be there in our way and would stop us from progressing, and that instead of going around it and risking being badly hurt, we could see it as a source of energy and concentrate our minds on it until we find the proper tools to hijack it and transform all the bad energy into fuel that would help us live our lives more aware and positive.
It seems hard to take the time and the mental effort to do that, and as I said everyone has different capacities, so not everyone can turn all negative energy into a positive one. But I think everyone has the capacity to learn and to not allow themselves to make the same mistakes over and over again, a bit like if in our lives we would have checkpoints that we would have set in our past so that all the changes allowed after that checkpoint would only be positive progress and changes towards something better. It would be like setting a point of no-return when we really know that a change we made is the best for us and that will never fail us.
But, what happens if someone doesnt care about making mistakes and wasting time on them, when they could avoid most of these mistakes? What if someone doesnt care about checkpoints? Or doesn't know how to set one? In my opinion, not being able to set rules and not being able to set points of no-return can keep you from living your life to the fullest extent, it can make you walk back into the same old traps you already stepped in before, it can make you generate so much fear, and selfishness. Because when you are scared, you take what's yours, all your feelings, your love, your passion, and you hold it too tight and you don't let anyone else touch it or see it. You become so tired of being hurt so you (unconsciously) decide to hurt other people and drag them in your insecurities where you can value yourself and prove that you know how to suck the energy out of other people. You may still seem like you are a social person but still you hide your game pretty well and you take everything you can take, money, sex, services, love, attention, everything. Now YOU are the one make other people feel FEAR and SELFISHNESS, and you might just end up turning a few of these people just like YOU, and then they will also inflict pain to other people and make them feel fear and selfishness and turn them into the same kind of self-centered cynical hedonistic fool.
But did you forgot something important? Why and when did you become so selfish? Why did you have so much fear? What keeps you away from being happy?
It's simply fear and selfishness that have turned you so cold because other people came before you and they couldnt find a way to transform their negative emotions into positive energy, and because they didnt make points of no return they started running in circles, going back into their old mistakes, trying to get everything they can get. They couldnt manage their emotions anymore, so they just tried to find peace into chaos and adversity, they wanted to hurt themselves so that they knew they could still feel something, and they did started to hurt other people too. They changed what they once wanted to be, what they once were, because other people before them gave in to the fear and selfishness they felt, and I guess it's easy to realize that it has been going on since forever, like an endless cycle that not enough people have been trying to break.
And now you remember that these people that came before you inflicted you pain, and then you started feeling the same fear and the same selfishness that they felt. And now you've become the one to turn other people into fearful and selfish beings, and you probably dont even realize it, and maybe you never will?
Its time to take a stand and take some time to think about it, do you really want to turn the world into shit? Do you want to be like all these people that feel fear and selfishness and kill for money, they manipulate, they find ways of making more money at the expense of other people, they start wars, they want to conquer, they want to make money, they want more and more and more. Do you want to let yourself be affected by acts of fear and selfishness? It could be a war, or it could be someone you love that is being mean to you, it could have been at school when you were 7 years old and someone said you look stupid. And these events could change you forever if you dont stand up and start having convictions and ideals, you have to stand and say "YES I KNOW THAT THESE THINGS ARE BAD FOR ME AND CREATE PAIN AND I WILL STAY FAR AWAY FROM THEM, AND YES I KNOW THAT THESE OTHER THINGS ARE GOOD FOR ME AND THE PEOPLE I LOVE SO I WILL SPEND MORE TIME DOING THEM INSTEAD OF WASTING TIME WITH USELESS GARBAGE".
Whats the other side to see? In my opinion, what is sad is that most people inflict pain(mental or physical or both at the same time) to other people and even if you think that you cannot be affected, even if you are good at transforming negativity into positive energy, you might have to witness your best friends suffer from fear and selfishness, and when you will stretch out your hand to help them you might have to watch them walk away, and believe me it will hurt you in many different ways. But if you've learned how to transform that flux of bad energy into good one, you will remain the same, and you will continue setting points of no return in your life and you will get stronger, and at least you'll know that you already learned what they didnt learned, so if someday they reach for help they will find a strong hand to pull them out of the hole.
People might have hurt you in the past, but there is no good reason to hurt other people, and no good reason to hurt yourself, and i'm talking pain for the sake of pain, because per example jogging an hour might hurt but you know its good in the end. Pain in general is so glorified by society in general, because it can make you feel so many different emotions, you can feel empowered by hurting yourself or other people, you can feel like you're really alive when you feel pain, you can make things in your mind turn around by feeling pain or by inflicting it. But in the end, its not worth it, it only feeds the fire, you only feed your bad side by being addicted to pain itself, and nothing good will come out of that. By inflicting pain, you can turn great human beings into bad people, you can make people change their mind on their convictions, you can turn a good man into a murderer. I see it happen all the time, good people being scared by something and becoming selfish and evil, so many minds and so many good intentions wasted by harsh words and horrible actions that have been committed towards them. These people don't necessarily know what to do, they don't know how or they don't take the time to take that pain and transform it into something good, and they might sink into fear and become selfish, and they might hurt you. And that is where you have the opportunity to prove your commitment to positive progress, that is the time to take the negative energy and turn it into a good form of energy, so you can be at peace and you can find ways to protect yourself from being hurt again, and you won't hurt other people, and fear may affect you but you'll find a way to be strong, and you might be tempted to be selfish and to break your commitments, but you'll quickly realize that it's not who you are and not how you want to live.
What i'm saying is NOT that we should never fight back or never keep our guard up, and im NOT saying we should just take all the attacks without defending ourselves. Instead, I think we should learn how to protect ourselves, how to avoid being in a position of fear. And if you have to fight back with words or actions, it should be in a way that will make other people realize something. I think its worth the effort just to try and break the cycle or fear and hate and selfishness, I think its worth the try just to perceive negative influences in a different way and not letting our pride take control of our minds, because not only you will feel better about your position in life, but at the same time you also won't be the one to inflict pain (like I said, mental or physical pain) to other people. Inflicting pain to other people is senseless and plain stupid, it's an endless cycle and people that are hurt are going to hurt other people who are going to hurt other people... people that might hurt you in the future. If you inflict pain, you and the rest of the world will receive more pain, and it will just grow unless some people decide to break the cycle, and I want to be a part of these people, id rather do something that will help people and make them see that there is hope, that we can still have faith in the human race, no matter who they are, if they are bad people or good people, weak or strong people, I wish everyone would have a little more faith in the human race, because then things might change for the best, people might start to realize how much life is precious. Its a basic change, and an important one.
Sometimes you feel more pain than you thought you could, sometimes you feel more alone than you thought you could ever feel, sometimes remains of the past seem to come back to haunt you and scare you, but what's vital in life is to be committed to positive changes and to stay away from self-destructive behaviors. No matter how much it hurts, don't give in, and find ways of progressing within yourself, find ways of being at peace with yourself without thinking about what you own or where you live, without thinking about eating or drinking, without thinking about anyone else. Just think about how you could become a better person, and things that you should spend more time on doing, and things that you should never do again. Think about what you sand for, and what you stand against, and why. Be conscious of the world that is living within yourself, your imagination, your idealistic views, your passions.
It can be hard to connect with our own person, but its important. Never forget who you are and why you are this way, and you might just realize how small details in life can be so important, and people should really need to focus on these details rather than to try to be rich and famous and powerful.
There is so much more to say about the subject, so many important things to learn about the way we are and the way we could live if we'd take time to realize. I think that there are ways of going back to the basics by being evolved and thoughtful human beings at the same time.
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